The finalists were announced today for the ABCS of Death part 2 short film competition and my film was not chosen. Which is fine and was expected. A big reason we didn’t get as many views/likes as I had hoped was because I didn’t promote as much as I should have. Also the night before we shot M is for Mass I was making a prop/cutting it. I was cutting down and I used to much pressure and the blade came down on my left index finger, above the knuckle. I was doing this late at night at about 11pm and the cut was deep enough that I had to go to the ER with my girlfriend. I got stitches, which by the way did hurt, and when we left it was around 2-2:30am. The shoot on Saturday was at 3pm but I need to do errands before hand so that sucked.
Then that same night our cat Marilyn wasn’t feeling well and he peed the bed; since June 2013 he was diagnosed with chronic kidney disease. Then on my way to the location to shoot it starts to rain, hard. Out of all the days in September, in Summer it fucking rains. Thankfully we were shooting inside, but it was still an annoyance. The shoot went really well though.
In between I had gotten an official email saying my short film The Can-Cannibals had been accepted to a film festival, so I promoted it and planned on attending the festival, but then I get a second email saying it wasn’t accepted. Luckily mutual friends was helping to organize the festival and found out that the person in charge thought my film would be selected so she prematurely sent out an official email before the schedule was official. If it wasn’t for my friends co-organizing the festival then would I had never received an email informing me it wasn’t being shown? Would I have showed up like a fucking idiot and sat there just waiting for my film to pop up on the screen? The woman sent me an apology, again after my friends intervened. They even did their best to make up for the embarrassment and confusion by having it screen before the festival started, but I never found out if it was part of the official selection or not.
So I edited M is for Mass, put it up on youtube/abcs of death entry page and since then we were taking care of our cat Marilyn. He eventually passed on 10/20 and it brought extreme sadness into our lives, still does. My girlfriend wrote a loving memorial for him and you can read it at her blog: http://www.missmuffcake.com/2013/11/memories-and-love-for-best-kitty-ever.html
My girlfriend had Marilyn for 16 years and out of those 16 years I was in his life for 7 and a half. He was an awesome cat, he had one of the most defined personalities in a cat I’ve ever seen. He loved weird foods like avocado, spaghetti noodles, vegan mac and cheese, and much more. When we would come home, I would open the door and he’d hop down from his perch, or where ever he was and greet us at the door, like a dog. He didn’t just treat us like we were the ones that provided food, he truly loved us and especially Kendy (my girlfriend). He was a fighter, he hung in there to be with us for as long as he could. His will was strong, his medical conditions were holding him back and I know if he could he’d still be here right now. I want to write more but there’s so much to write but it hurts to write. He was king of the castle. We miss him. We have his ashes. And my girlfriend made an altar for him on Dias De Los Muertos. We love him.
But once he passed I did not give a shit about some online competition. I couldn’t promote my own film. But with one last effort I wrote an email to our local newspaper asking if they can simply promote not only my film but two other Modesto film marker’s who had entered into this worldwide competition. I even sent them messages/tweets on twitter, but got absolute nothing in return. They did not respond to my email, and they couldn’t even take the time to press the “re-tweet” button on twitter. Fucking bullshit. Where I live, Modesto, they do not give a shit about film let alone indie film. Art in this town is geared toward children and the elderly, and for whatever fucking reason they choose to ignore the 18-35 year old demographic. But even when we do have younger business owners/artists they want the community to support them but they don’t support the community back. I had a local cafe tell me he didn’t want to put up a flyer because his independent business was, “all about the coffee.” His establishment still exists in some form but he’s no longer the owner.
With all that shit, my love for film making has not dissipated, it is not gone! I have already entered Mass into another online competition and I am looking into film festivals. My short was made to be self-contained in a 3 minute format so I’m keeping it the same. I only added two things: One was an extra slightly longer shot of the actor Colton bleeding from his head and the other thing I added was credits. So it’s still the same movie. But I’m probably taking it off youtube while I enter festivals. It will come back online eventually. Though I went on about negatives, it’s because film/art is so important to me and I’m very passionate about it. And I get passionate when art is mishandled, ignored or abused; in one way or another.
I’m also working on a new script. This blog has gone on too long, so I’ll save details about the new script for later.
Sadness and anger was my September and October, but we’re living and I can keep going on.